I am here to tell you that you can make it if you don't give up. Keep going. If you give up you are going back to what?
It may look good at the start, and you may feel that bit of relief that you have the stress relieved but that is just temporary.
Many have been down that road before you .... you know that road of hopelessness and few have survived. I mean really do you know anyone who has given up on God who is better off?
Where are they today? If you could talk with them and ask them what they like best about their life now what do you think they would say?
The bible does say that when you lose hope it is a sickness to your heart. But when a desire is fulfilled it is life to us.
"Hope delayed makes the heart sick, but desire fulfilled is a tree of life." Proverbs 13:12 Christian Standard Bible
Jesus is your hope! He is your only hope.
If you are discouraged reach out to someone who knows Jesus and has a relationship with Him and ask for help.
You can contact me if you like also.